• Even when things are seemingly going well we are upset. Why do we get upset? How can we live in balance? Simply shared insights. 

I often wonder...

Everything is set in this universe, yet why are people upset? This question comes to my mind again and again during my sadhana.

I look at Prakriti, at Mother Nature. I feel she is giving us her best, every single day, without asking anything in return. 

Sun rises on time for everyone. Air is free for the rich and poor. Water still tries to reach us. Earth still holds us, even when we forget her. Space allows us to exist.

To me the Panchamahabhutas-Prithvi, Jal, Agni, Vayu, Akasha, are in absolute balance. Nature is perfectly intelligent. Nothing is lacking. Everything is set.

Then why are we, human beings, still so upset?

Why is there so much anxiety, sleeplessness, anger, loneliness when nature is giving its best? This question disturbed me for a long time.

During meditation, I got an answer from within so am sharing with you.

I feel, the imbalance is not outside but within us. That is why we are upset.

Within us why did they lose their balance?

In my understanding, it is because of our thought process. Because of our samkaras. Because of the deep impressions that are stored in our subconscious mind - not just from this life but from so many lives before.

I realized that we have forgotten our true nature. We have become so absorbed in the outside materialistic world and believe that more of everything will make us it happy – be it money, fame, house and followers of social media. So we are perpetually running to achieve this more.

In my own case, the more I run outside, the more I move away from my true nature making me feel upset, anxious and empty.

I am a tree searching for water in the sky, while water is in my own roots. 

So what is our true nature? Our Rishis have said it so beautifully - Sat-Chit-Ananda.* When I contemplate on this, I feel this is my true being.

When I say *Sat*, mean ‘I am Truth. I am Existence. I am not this body that will age. I am eternal. When I forget this, I feel fear.

When I say *Chit*, mean I am Consciousness, not my thoughts. I am the one who is aware of thoughts. When I forget this, I become my thoughts and I suffer.

When I say *Ananda*, mean I am Bliss itself, not someone who needs to seek happiness. I am happiness itself. Like a small child who is happy without any reason because i.e. the child’s natural state.

So I tell myself - I am not seeking happiness. I am happiness.

But what do I do?

Like everyone else, I sometimes search for happiness outside - in people, in achievements, in shopping. I have learnt that one cannot buy happiness. When bought such happiness is impermanent.

I can buy pleasure. But pleasure stays for 2 days, 2 months. Then it goes. Because pleasure depends on an object. Happiness depends on my own being.

So where does real happiness come from?

In my journey, have understood that real happiness comes only when I work on the impressions of my subconscious mind. Those vasanas, those samskaras that have been accumulated from so many lives.

Our subconscious mind is 95% of who we are. Consciously I want to be happy, but subconsciously if I carry "I am not enough", then how can I be happy? That is why I do daily sadhana. To clean that storehouse.

This cleansing connects me the panchmahabhutas within me.

When I carry too much fear inside, Prithvi tatva becomes weak. I feel unstable, insecure.

When I suppress emotions, Jal tatva is blocked. I feel dry.

When I carry anger and jealousy, Agni tatva goes high - I get burnout, acidity.

When I overthink too much, Vayu tatva gets disturbed - anxiety, restlessness.

When I feel purposeless and disconnected, Akasha tatva is blocked-loneliness.

Thus, it is not the world but inner imbalance that makes me upset.

That is why I believe, true healing is not just taking medicine for headache. True healing is resuming and retaining balance.

For me, healing has three layers which is why I named it Trikaya:

*My Body:* Prithvi and Jal - I take care through right food, breathing, yoga.

*My Mind:* Agni and Vayu - I take care through meditation, pranayama, being aware of my thoughts.

*My Soul:* Akasha - I take care through sadhana/silence/cleaning subconscious impressions.

When I clean my subconscious, my inner panchmahabhutas come back into balance. When my inside is balanced, the outside too looks balanced.

So I have learned:

I am not upset because world is wrong.

I am upset because I am far from Myself.

And my whole life journey is to come back to myself. From outside to inside.

My true nature is Sat-Chit-Ananda. Your true nature is also Sat-Chit-Ananda. We are all that.

We don't need to find happiness. We need to remember we are happiness.

Come back to yourself. Come back to your body. Come back to your breath. Come back to Sat-Chit-Anand. That is true healing. That is what I want to share with you through Trikaya Cosmos.

Author Dr Sharda is a Spiritual Councellor  

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Also read

1. Sat Chit Ananda

2. What is Svadharma

3. What is Svadharma – getting to know our True Nature